February 20, 2012
Truth
When should the truth come out? We all have a secret. Think about it. Everyone of us has something hidden from the world, from your family, from your friends. And secrets are ok. There’s no reason to make a drama about it or change your life. Your secret might be big, your secret might be small, your secret might be stupid, your secret might be life-changing.
Maybe your secret is one you would like to whisper into someone’s ear, as simple as an “I love you”. Your secret might be something from your past that you have held for so long. Maybe its one that you try to erase to feel better, one you wish would have never happened. Maybe yours is devastating. You cheated. A secret that you know will blow up in the long run.
Maybe your secret has been bouncing around your head for so long that you NEED to let it out. Maybe its the truth. The truth that you know is right but you don’t have the guts to say. Is it your sexuality? Is it your family? Is it your choices? Is it your future that depends on it? You live your daily routine every day but you don’t realize that at the end of the day you aren’t happy. You wish you could tell the world but you’re scared. Scared of what society might think? Scared of being unsuccessful? Scared of losing your friends?
Don’t be. Drop it. Forget about the judgements. If you have had a secret that is almost creeping out of your body. Say it! I opened up this weekend like I have never done before. Obviously, these are my secrets that I won’t share but I am proud I shared them with who I needed to. I’ll tell you about one of them: I was in the car with my mom (this might not have seemed like a secret but its something I needed to admit). She asked me what would make me happy at this very moment. College and major wise. You know what I said? I would KILL to be an actress/singer. Something my family has never approved of but I finally took it off my chest.
Other secrets surfaced. Secrets that I have held for 2 years, secrets that I have held for a couple of days. The truth sometimes is the right way to go. I might not be an open book at times but it feels good to not bottle my life up so much. It sucks to hold my breath so many times when in reality it is better to just be.
I have my share of past, present, and probably future secrets. But secrets sometimes bundle up inside and eat you to your core. So what about you? Have you stopped eating to look better? Have you cheated on your girlfriend with her best friend? Do you have a family issue that no one knows about? Could you be an alcoholic? Do you hate yourself? Are you in love with your best friend but can’t admit it? Are you living the life YOU want to live?
Truth is, I didn’t make those up. Through the years I’ve heard these happen. I’ve heard these secrets and maybe one of those secrets is mine. But I’ll never tell which one it is. That would just suck the fun out of trying to guess it. Maybe all of those are mine. Maybe none of them are mine.
What are your secrets? One thing is for sure, never lie to yourself about who YOU are. Have secrets. Keep them to yourself, fuck it, who cares. But ALWAYS, promise me, you will be yourself.
GY
